sensitive person i know when it comes to touch.
if i dont feel another person's touch for a while,
i start feeling restless. jaime resorted to tracing letters
on my back one day for me to guess words while we were
in class. and it works perfectly.

those babies who grow up traumatized if they arent held
or something like that is so true. i am the same way.
i'd go crazy without someone giving me a hug
or spelling words on my back or poking me in the side.

today i realized that my boyfriend is REALLY awesome at
massaging shoulders and heads. he picked up a few
therapeutic techniques from the hospital last summer.

im finally not mad at my photography teacher anymore,
my life is coming back together, and soon this chapter of
my life will be OVER!

two more weeks, cant wait! :]

that i would ever be like this.
i wish i could be happy.
but i cant.
not now.




and i wish i could say whats bugging me so badly.
but i cant.
not here.




and i hate hearing everyone saying theyre sorry,
hate telling them the truth cause i know how theyll react.
but they dont know everything.
thats the problem.
they dont know what it's like, not at all.


im just so sick of all the negative energy in my life right now.
i wish i could flush it all out.
be whole again.

and im no longer the same person i once was.
my entire life has changed within the past three weeks; stuff id rather not go into detail about with strangers.
if you know me in person, you probably already know.
im getting more and more into my art as a way to cope with these changes.

i'll put up some stuff sooner or later.

love.
me.

I've cleared all the messages and deviations I've needed to go through. FINALLY!


Sorry to everyone that I've been writing in French a lot on this site. It just seems like the easiest thing for me to do on here, cause it helps me practice it. Plus, it's fun to name stuff in French. I don't even know why.

So please bear with me, and find a dictionary if you need to.

I really wish I could find a scanner so I could upload the stuff that I've done in photo class. I like them a lot better than my digital stuff.

But I'll keep lookig through, trying to find stuff.

peaceandlove.

WINDOWS CANNOT OPEN WINDOW "deviantart.com/messages"

wow okay.
WAY TO FAIL, WINDOWS.

i just really felt like i needed to clear the 666 journals that were on there.

buuuuuut i guess that can wait
until later.



speaking of crappy internet, i wish i could go on the internet without it having problems.

blocked at school: myspace, facebook, meebo, PHOTOBUCKET!, livejournal, xanga, DEVIANTART... basically, anything you can think of. it's basically a waste of tiem to even try to find something that's not blocked.

blocked at home: myspace, facebook, YAHOO MUSIC, and random half pages of various sites like deviantart and blogs. STUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID.





it feels like im living in china, i swear, what with all the stupid internet restrictions.


blahblahblah etc.
bye!